« Jan. 9 Reflection: Hopes, Fears, Expectations

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RW Kathryn Smith AE MB
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What I am most excited about, getting into my internship, is the opportunity to make a positive impact in communities because it brings me a sense of connection, and it makes me fill like I am a part of a greater cause and mission to do good. However, even though I appreciate being a member of this team, I have never imagined myself in such a position. Taking up new positions, or just doing things for the first time in general, always makes me nervous because I feel like I may not fully grasp what exactly is needed from me. There's always a voice inside my head saying I'll be a disappointment who everyone regrets welcoming to the team, but I always try to fight back with a positive mindset.


I know that the task of applying for grants will be quite challenging because the weight of whether they receive the grants or not is on me. However, I choose to stay optimistic because I think I'm very good at learning, so I'll definitely learn and quickly adapt to the application process. Also, communicating has always been very challenging for me, and part of the reason why I am here in the first place is hoping to further develop and strengthen my communication skills. I also specifically want to learn and expand my researching and problem solving skills. 

Furthermore, I hope that by listening to the stories of the people that the organization will be helping, I will be inspired and encouraged to step out of my comfort zone and talk to others whenever I am personally struggling. It's not only about ex-convicts or recovery from substance abuse. People have so many other issues they deal with but cannot openly talk about it because they are subject to judgment from the world. As a result they drown in their problems and some end up becoming victims of substance abuse. I applaud such organizations that strive to help such people. 

At the end of this month I hope to understand that there's still so much to learn. We may not always have solutions to everybody's problems, but being emotionally present and listening to them unbiased also brings a sense of comfort.

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  1. Post by Mary Bullock
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    Our internships are both about helping minority groups through the city of birmingham and I share your excitement to learn about the community. I think your ability to adapt quickly will be a great asset to their needs. What previous experience made you interested in a project such as this if any?
  2. Post by Aliya Epps
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    I think it's cool that we both want to make a positive impact in the communities that we are working with, as well as stepping out of our comfort zones. I am interested to  get to know how you will be able to use your problem solving skills with you internship
  3. Post by Kathryn Smith
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    I'm proud of you for pushing yourself to try something outside your comfort zone! Regarding grants, I know it feels like the outcome is all on your shoulders, but I think you will soon see that is not the case. Grants are a true team effort. Even if you are the one writing them, you will need data and stories from staff and clients throughout the organization. Gathering all that information will be a great way to meet people and learn about PEER's impact!
  4. Post by Rachel Wray
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    It sounds like you're trying o step out of your comfort zone and create a positive impact on the community and I think that is great. I am also trying to do the same with mine and even though it will be challenging I think we will both learn how to impact our community in our own unique ways at the end of the month.
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